No comment today.
title: 2020-07-02 toc: 2020-07-02 date: 2020-07-02 23:00:00 tags: diary
One deams
Caught by parents shooting porn ( as a photographer, not actor ), Given an hour to figure out 10 excuses, failed.
Jean Sibelius Essentials
Few composers celebrated their homeland as passionately and powerfully as Jean Sibelius. His tone-poem Finlandia became an alternate Finnish national anthem, and his seven symphonies, written in a tonal and magnificently atmospheric language, take us on a searing voyage of the soul. From the Tchaikovskian first two, Sibelius refines and concentrates his language-passing through No. 5with shattering power-to the short and intense No. 7.As well as shorter orchestral works, Sibelius is equally famed for his technically challenging Violin Concerto.
I was listening this guys music in Apple Music random pick while I did my daily practice of running hand (WTF? Is there a better name? ), The elegant melody of his violin just moved me so much.
You know one of my sister was a very excellent violinist when I was child, I almost grew up surrounded by those masterpieces ( There were some years our flat was sold and we live with her family ). However, I didn't know those composer's name, but I believe one of them must be Jean Sibelius, because that sounds so familiar.
We all think that my sister will become an elegant and confident girl in the future, just like those most enviable "white rich pretty" internet celebrity.
Unfortunately, life is like a box of chocolate, you never know if you're gonna pick a shit, since they looked the same.
The sudden family changes firstly caused her to say goodbye to a large amount of family wealth which ought to give her a noble-like life. What's worse, after my uncle was gone, my aunt, with intense hysteria (I guess) , almost destroyed my sister's robust personality with constant domestic violence. You can never imagine how dirty words can come out of an angry mother's mouth, It just insane. Not to mention some horrible physical cruelty. While I only realize those things is antihuman when I moved to another big city because that is quit common in our places.
The new father is a real coward which can't give her any help either inside the family or in business, being jobless for almost one year and constant failure from civil servant exam almost broke her spirit. The most fucking thing is that the people around her, especially her fiancé and fiancé's mother (mean and ignorant rural gossiper, who only think highly of people work in public system, which is, her baby civil servant son) always ridicule her consciously or unconsciously. You know people in that situation can be very sensitive and every Irrelevant words may be a direct harm to them.
My mother make a phone call to her last week which really hurt her, she cried and screamed for whole night. My aunt called back next day to blame my mother for adding fuel to the flames. Instead of making a sincerely apology for the hurt she have caused others, my mother chooses to cut off contact with my sister(She think her of a squeamish princes) , which is totally asshole.
My mother asked me whether I am going to be her wedding photographer few months later (they may want to save that money) . I rejected, but at that sudden I could almost foresee that kind of awful traditional wedding which all my brothers and sisters did( Except for one who works at the Foreign Ministry in Beijing, I was not privileged to be invited to Beijing ) Awkward emcee, dim hotel, drunk man with heavy smoke, totally aesthetic disaster. But all these things shouldn't happen, it should be a holy church of Bach and Tchaikovsky resounded, which only those truly decent gentlemen wearing formal dress will be invited.
Fuck life!
Takashi Yasui
Not so good, too must noise and contrast.
title: 2020-07-03 toc: 2020-07-03 date: 2020-07-03 23:00:00 tags: diary
One Dream
Back to school, seat arrangement.
Teacher: According to the record, you have a basket history of misbehavior, including constant harass your classmates and ask irrelevant questions. Consider the fact that the lady behind you has announced official protest for letting you sit around, I give you a final warning: if there is anything unpleasant happened……
I: I am fully aware of the trouble my ignorant and frivolity have caused me, and I urgently ask that respectable lady to give me a chance to turn over a new leaf. I swear that everything I did was on the basis of sincerity and kindness, and if I inadvertently disturbed you, I deeply apologize for it.
After school, I walked through a culvert, there were thousands of birds flying around but not moving.
Great chance to do some art.
I took out my phone and took some pictures, but camera app just don't work.
Walked outside the school, the school gate was blocked by a human wall constructed by thousands of migrant workers who had come to ask for their wages.
It was terrible.
They wouldn't give way, but they allowed students to walk over the heads of dead people they had brought in. Then we walked out the gate on the heads of thousands of dead people.
Shandong
What's wrong with it? Negative news one by one?
Everything comes for a reason, Shandong is far from the most corrupted province in Zh.
I believe some big names are in trouble now.
Final exam
The only way they think out to prevent plagiarizing is to ( dramatically ) increase the difficulty of test papers.
Which makes the hole test become a self-study ability test since nothing in the papers is ever teached.
Night Walk
I used to buy my bread at the dinosaur park right in front of my house, but I changed to another shop today.
It's a bit far, on the East Hanjiang Road, but this street is so strange, the density of the Japanese shops is just insane! Hundreds of Japanese food restaurants stacked almost one by one!
title: 2020-07-04 toc: 2020-07-04 date: 2020-07-04 23:00:00 tags: diary
One dream
Two of us love the same girl on the train.
One of "I" is boiler man, another is tramp.
Unfortunately that girl is not an innocent little lambs, she continued to profit from our courtship without declaring which one she is chosen.
Chaos.
PB
I think pornhub should be banned in Jp, how will those who sell pornographic videotapes survive from that? It is unfair!
Now they seem indifferent to piracy, most shockingly, many of them have mandarin caption, where Illegal gambling sites use subtitled ads between to attract potential customers.
海信A5 pro CC
WTF?
Despite the current user experience is totally shit, but I am quite surprise that colored E-ink devices come out that fast!
May be few years later we all could use a colored kindle-like tablet.
Internet crash
It now takes about 20s to load any website……
Can't bare it.
Reboot the router and computer and everything works again.
Why?
@植物椿
The most funny ZuAn video I've seen recently, highly recommend.
title: 2020-07-05 toc: 2020-07-05 date: 2020-07-05 23:00:00 tags: diary
One dream
Two Russian brothers: one as sniper, another is also a sinper but uses a submachine gun (MP5?)
They shoot random people passer by.
Three fat men arrived, armed with guns, one of the brothers shot down the first man, and soon the second man was shot in his leg, urine spraying, and the third shot, was in the bladder, yellow liquid exploded like a water balloon.
Too disgusted.
Lamp
Spend the whole afternoon to purchase some lamps for the new house in 邹区.
Totally shit!
All the lamps looks the same, they all copy from each other. Despite there are hundreds of shops selling all kinds of lamps, actually they're only about 4~5 types.
title: 2020-07-06 toc: 2020-07-06 date: 2020-07-06 23:00:00 tags: diary
One dream
One of my friends fell in love with a girl.
I meet him in a library on the fourth floor（The first floor is a vegetable market, the second one is a book center, like Xinhua Bookstore, the third floor is empty with only concrete walls and concrete floors, so why this building is a library?）
On the fourth floor, where many tramps were lodging, he ran down with a pillow and books in his arms. ( In reality, he does often live in the library instead of sleeping in the dormitory. Because he was an intern in the school's software development team, he had his own small space in the library, which was very quiet and spacious.）
I asked：what are you doing?
He：I'm following a beautiful girl. I met her the other day and fell immediately in love with her.
I：Love makes people fool, Let me see what kind of fairy girl has you in her thrall.
I don't remember what happen next.
Bootstrap
Well, the grid system is really nice!
I plan to make a AppleMusic-like NeteaseMusic website when I finished learning it.
The new secretary
The new pårty secretåry of Changzhou arrived today, bringing 100 billion RMB in development funds.
The slogan is a plan that builds the new city.
One of the buildings to be built is a Changzhou version of Marina Bay Sands
But instead of 3 cols, it has 4 cols.
1.2.4.8
Fuck！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
Now I know why it takes less that 1s to get on Google but 10s on average to search anything on Baidu……
I set the DNS to 8.8.8.8 ( Google DNS ) last year, it works perfectly fine in school, but when I got back home I feel like Safari is broken because it almost doesn't work.
I switch to Chrome, ok, 10s to search things on Baidu.
And it's getting slower and slower.
iPhone's network settings may be automatically synchronized with my Mac, so it create a unified user experience.
But when I uses my mom's HUAWEI MatePad to watch some videos today, it feels amazing smooth!
OMG it must be the DNS problem! I switch to 1.2.4.8, OMG Safari runs like a beast!
Joel Meyerowitz
The large format looks just gorgeous...
title: 2020-07-07 toc: 2020-07-07 date: 2020-07-07 23:00:00 tags: diary
No dream
Actually insomnia.
Pittance
I was listening Pittance from the album Maths and I happened to think about that:
The funniest thing about 曹学 or 入关学 is that the supreme pursuit of human civilization has turns out to be "Big House"& "Eat Steak", Excuse me??? WTF???
Some people may say, well, spiritual pursuit is important, but my life do get really hard if I don't have a big house right now.
Come on, that's not because you don't have a big house, okay?
That is because you live in a society that is hostile to people who don't have big houses , a society where relatively poor people (which is the majority) have no sense of dignity in any case.
You don't choose from rich or poor, you choose from rich or miserable.
People don't believe in love and tolerance, trampling each other madly and discriminating against each other in any possible field. And 曹学家 think all these shit things could be simply repaired with a big house???
That reminds me of the big steel-making in 1958. The chåirmån is so keen on the increase of steel production. He issued a call to overtake Britain within three years. The symbol of overtaking The UK is not in anything else, but in steel production. What can that fucking dark ring of iron do? Even if all today's steel production were transported to Chinå in 1958, would that Chinå suddenly become the greatest country in the world?
国の歴史的ユー⑤佗蜯運動−big岄進からbig🐔饉へ(1958−1961)
（I found that replacing a to å and c to ç is completely useless, hope this could cheat the auto detect systems.）
I had lost all my interest in national history series because the previous book, 1966 one, was so badly written( and not pc ). However, the description of 钢铁直男錋㥁徊 in Huang Zhangjing's article successfully aroused my great curiosity to see what happened in the Lshan Meeting.
I had expected that to be a heroic or idealistic anti-authority tragedy in which a traditional loyalist dared to speak his mind. But when I read it, I found it was completely different.
Actually, although I know it is unfair to say so, but on the surface, I even get a little angry about PDh. I think he completely transformed the history of our country, a place where we could have gone to be better, but he turned it into a hell.
Before the Lshan meeting, 🐈 had made several southern tours to figure out what happened. He knew that the so-called high production was all lie to him, and because of the series of lies, excessive grain impose and the loss of labor to make steel have caused widespread famine.
（By the way, three years of natural disasters is a complete sham, even if you take the current grain production capacity of Israel and put it in 国 at that time, it would also cause famine, because the year before the famine, people were actually talking about what if there was too much food to eat?!!）
The Lshan meeting was supposed to be against the left. The meeting was used to fraternize with other 排队领袖. To find a solution to the left, but a letter from Pdh completely changed the course. 🐈 was so angry, cursed on the meeting for entirely three hours.
So does he in his letter showed a betrayal of 🐈 ?
In fact, there was no difference between what he said in his letter and what other leaders had said at the meeting, except that he had used the word "petty-bourgeois". The rest, believe me, is even too humble.
Then PDH was isolated, LShao⑦, Zou摁徕, also began to slander him crazily, all kinds of people have framed him without any principle.
国 was embroiled in the endless 怔炙 battles again, all people against all people. Only 稻 survived in the end and save us from becoming 曹. You know that could happened by plan.
title: 2020-07-08 toc: 2020-07-08 date: 2020-07-08 23:00:00 tags: diary
One dream
Two odd gentlemen stood in front of a bar, recording a billiard game half a world away. They deliberately gave the wrong score for the game, I don't know why.
While inside the bar, a crazy abnormal man, uses a rhinoceros, a turtle, and other animals to make a human-centipede, but instead of connecting their anus to their mouth, they passed water, that means…… Oh, my god, that would be disgusting. I don't want to even recall that.
title: 2020-07-09 toc: 2020-07-09 date: 2020-07-09 23:00:00 tags: diary
One dream
Boring dictation dream, actually I am afraid that I might confuse dreams with memories in the end.
Nakayama Kyotaro
He is really good at dealing with blue sky...
Ingenuity
Found two design details that really touched me:
- When I try to delete the Podcast that have been listened, I find they are already deleted automatically. So the whole process is almost automatic. After you subscribe to a Podcast, it will automatically download the latest one, and then you open it with Siri to listen to it. It's automatically deleted when you finished, and you don't need to spend any time to manage the list. So convenient!
- I was doing my discrete math homework this morning. I usually code all the formula, but when it comes to drawing the relation map, apparently the traditional paper and pencil combination is more convenient. But transporting img is not, even with airdrop. So I thought if I could use the front facing camera of the Mac to do it. But I soon find all the text seems inverted from right to left（mirror image principle）, I am depressed, complained why Apple don't think about that, but when I shoot the map, something magical happened, the img automatically inversed! So convenient!
Israel uses F-35 to blow up Iranian nuclear sites
NB!
F-35 awesome!
Nobody even know that, it just like a ghost, the whole series of antiaircraft missile（mainly S-300 series）just became dumb.
You know F-35 is not designed to be stealth-first, much worse than F-22 and B-2 (An order of magnitude behind)
如何看待中山大学老师王晓玮网课课堂直播微信与多人约pao？
OMG the list is up to number 10！
feast or famine！
Hand hands loud louds！
现在我越来越相信一句话，强者啥都强。发的了论文，拿的到项目，白天瞎jb忙，晚上jb瞎忙。可怜的我白天没啥吊事，晚上x也没事。教师和教师的差距比狗还大。唉，说多了都是泪，最近一篇论文写完了才发现有重大错误，继续想去了。
From: https://www.zhihu.com/question/405274250/answer/1326683674
title: 2020-07-10 toc: 2020-07-10 date: 2020-07-10 23:00:00 tags: diary
One dream
One of my friends came from France to spend her summer vacation in China, we were planned to take some photos in an abandoned train station.
She says French workers are very well paid. Would I be interested in working in France? (as railroad workers, like switchers)
I expressed my concern that my French might be a big obstacle. ( which I don't know any )
Another friend of mine bragged that in their railway tax office. The wage is much higher than the average wage in France. ( which they are able to dispose of intercepted illegal goods at their please. )
I was curious about what he said and asked him a few technical questions about the details of implementation.
At that time, I accidentally dropped my AirPods and broke it. I realize I had less than ￥200 in my wallet and I couldn't live without it.
Awake.
Constantine Manos
Rough & high contrast, but color is good
title: 2020-07-11 toc: 2020-07-11 date: 2020-07-11 23:00:00 tags: diary
Telegram
After heard his founder's story, I feel really puzzled: Why could such thing exist in such a damn world？Is that because this world is indeed with rule of law and carrying out the innocence inference? Even if some European countries can, Russia and Iran could obviously conduct an international arrest warrant. Or another assumption is politicians&some big names around the world also uses it for convenience.
Another thing that surprised me is that telegram is a small but elite development team, only 12 people, all world-class programming champions. Truly, some times more people just caused more chaos. A good programmer is 1000 times faster that a normal one, and the normal one usually damaged your overall architecture.
title: 2020-07-12 toc: 2020-07-12 date: 2020-07-12 23:00:00 tags: diary
Insomnia
Oh fuck!
The most frustrating thing is you can't sleep in bed, but you get sleepy when you get up. Not only went to bed late, but also got up early.
I used to think that insomnia was nothing as long as there were Dostoevsky 's novel.
Bootstrap
It just makes things so simple and so clear, it's all semantic, just like swiftUI.
title: 2020-07-13 toc: 2020-07-13 date: 2020-07-13 23:00:00 tags: diary
Thesis defense
I can't even talk without seeing anyone for so long!
Most absurdly, the whole thesis defense meeting turned into an indictment of US imperialism for its inaction in coVID-19！
Some pretty little girls! Get their washed totally pink! What a pity!
Ranger
Have my ranger set up today.
Awesome!
Everyone should try it, it boost your speed of using computer! At least 100 times faster!
title: 2020-07-14 toc: 2020-07-14 date: 2020-07-14 23:00:00 tags: diary
Lemaire Spring/Summer 2021 | Paris Fashion Week Homme Online
So many black people....
Android 11 beta 2
我们想要打造出一个适用于任何 App 当中的系统长截图功能，为此也投入了人力和时间。但开发资源有限，今年情况也比较特殊，尽管这会是一个很酷的功能，我们依然认为它还没准备好。以后再说吧。
WTF??? It is 2020 !!! And you are Google !!!
Why just copy MI or HUAWEI's code? This feature has been implemented for many years!
And you, Apple! You can even move macOS to ARM architecture but can't make a long screenshots???
title: 2020-07-15 toc: 2020-07-15 date: 2020-07-15 23:00:00 tags: diary
Dreams
Travel to some where, watch TV with my grandparents.
……
In reality, this will never happen. I don't know how they will ever understand this strange world (from TV), from MAO time all the way to this age of entertained to death. Maybe I should go back to see them, or how lonely their lives must be.
My grandmother often taught me how to kill time since I was a child. Unlike today, where time is so tight that there is never enough of it, the problem most people face in that small city is that they actually have too much free time and don't know what to do.
The solution is mainly Mahjong, cards, sweaters, gambling, Various kinds of chess……
After those adults moved to big cities, they still played with those things.
Bootstrap 4
Finished learning.
Well, I actually get the wrong order, I should learn jQuery and Ajax first...
Now I can easily build beautiful responsive web page, but still can't get the date flow from back end.
Can't find decent English tutorial about Ajax and jQuery on bilibili, by the way, I hate Chinese training class video, those sound just like pyramid selling! Terrible! If you go to watch an English training course. You will think your teacher is a very energetic geek, while you listen to Chinese training courses, you will either think your teacher is a MLM champion. Or that industry ecosystem has no dignity at all.
Key repeated
Are you scrolling and cursor-positioning by holding down the arrow keys and relying on automatic key repeat? If so, then the problem may simply be your key repeat rate. You can adjust that in the Keyboard panel of System Preferences.
Oh fuck! I finally understand way my Terminal on MacOS is so sticky and slow: the default key repeated and the Delay Until Repeat in the sys is set to "middle" and "slow", and it is really fucking slow!!!
Now I set to the "high" and "very fast", and it feels so smooooooooooooooooth!!!
title: 2020-07-16 toc: 2020-07-16 date: 2020-07-16 23:00:00 tags: diary
Dreams
Taking an exam with my mom, riding, Many ghosts fly around the bike, When they coming near, I shout out my spell: "display:none"! And they disappear.
Evernote
How did its clipboard plugin get so intelligent? I was shocked by its automatic detection, it automatically move the ranger doc into "command-line tool" folder and css doc into "前端" folder, that means it actually know what my folder's name means and what the doc is talking about!
title: 2020-07-17 toc: 2020-07-17 date: 2020-07-17 23:00:00 tags: diary
25 Iran
Oh fuck!
Cuban Missile Crisis AGAIN？？？
如何看待武汉科协回应 2 名小学生研究茶多酚抗肿瘤获奖：学生能够独立完成实验，并按照程序申报？
WOW, This guy is awesome !
I knew his name several months ago, being reported by “饶毅”.
But this is weird. As we all know there are two kinds of big names: Those who are too big to be put on the media and those who are not too big to put on the media.
To the first kind nobody knows what happened or dares to know what happened, however the second kind, once be reported, It's basically a sentence to death to them.
This guy is the third kind: We dare to know what happened but can do nothing about it.
……
So why so many academic scandal been exposed recently? Is it another against the rightism?
title: 2020-07-18 toc: 2020-07-18 date: 2020-07-18 23:00:00 tags: diary
Dream
Having exams on Math and English again.
But I am quite relaxed because I knew that is a dream.
I see some of my middle school classmates and high school classmates, I asked one of them: What year is this?
A:"2015"
B:"2017"
I asked A:"Hey, Mr Wang, What is your age?"
A:"14, So why you are here?"
I:"Emm, I don't necessarily be here, I am already 21, I am here just because this is my dreams."
B:"Can't you have a better dream? I've just been scolded by the teacher for the whole class!"
I:"Sorry for that, but it is all going to be end soon."
Swiper.js
Oh, the cover-float effect is amazing.
Can't imaging why there're so many great tool kits while at the same time our viewing experience is still shit!
By the way, swift must steal some of jQ's inspiration.
Optional is a great design!
《死屋》
然而，尽管十二月党人忍受着道德折磨和身体不适，通过大多数十二月党人被运送到西伯利亚的方式，人们可以看出他们是具有特殊地位的人。首先，他们是坐着马车，而不是步行。在19世纪20年代，每年都有数干名流放者辛苦地越过乌拉尔山，对于这些流放者来说，坐马车赶路是一件难以想象的事情。官员和押送兵也不确定要如何对待他们押送的对象。即使十二月党人已经“被剥夺了一切权利和特权”，十二月党人仍然在语言、举止和礼仪上与他们的上级相同。扎瓦利申说：“无论我们去哪里，我们都被称为爵爷和将军......许多人既想用符合我们当前地位的态度来对待我们，又想表示对我们的尊重，于是他们对我们说前殿下、前阁下'。"警卫们在执行大臣们精心设计的严格规则时很迟疑，但是十二月党人用贿赂为自己买来的好处让这些规则执行得更加混乱。尼古拉一世的第三厅（在十二月党人起义之后，尼古拉一世为打击暴动而成立了这个部门）的负责人亚历山大·本肯多夫了解到，最早的两组流放者沿途“吃吃喝喝”，用酒食让自己的押送士兵和宪兵为他们效劳。奥博连斯基可以给自己的妻子写信，达维多夫可以刮胡子。十二月党人被明令禁止乘坐自己的马车，但是，方维津利用妻子给他的1000卢布恰恰坐上了自己的马车，并成功为自己和旅伴弄到了温暖的毯子。在旅程当中，他和同伴被他们的宪兵“服侍“。
……
在出去工作之前，营房守卫和十二月党人妻子家的仆人都忙得不可开交。书籍、报纸、棋盘、早餐、茶炊、茶和咖啡都被带到了我们的工作场所。如果我们要去修补“魔鬼的坟墓”，工人就会带上砂浆桶、手推车和铲子。最后，一个军官会过来问我们：“先生们，去工作吗？今天谁去（因为每天都会有很多人说自己生病了，因而不想工作）?“如果愿意工作的人太少，军官就会说：“还是需要人工作，先生们，否则指挥官会发现工作的人数太少。”这时有人会说：“好吧，我也去吧。”……然后我们便出发了，有些人会为了消遣而拿上一把铲子，有些人没拿。士兵们会带上一些备用的铲子。我们中的某个人开始唱歌，伴随着镇铐的当哪声……我们经常会哼唱一首革命歌曲，《我们的祖国在你的束缚下受苦》等等。军官和士兵会平静地听着这首歌，并伴着歌继续往前走，好像一切都是理所应当的……工作场所变成了一个俱乐部；有些人在看报纸，有些人下棋，还有人是为了娱乐而把泥土装进手推车里，把手推车里的土和灰浆倒入沟渠后便放声大笑……官员或监工会吃我们剩下的早餐或茶，只有当他看见指挥官出现在远处时，为了装样子，他才会向我们大喊：“这是在干什么，先生们，你们怎么不工作？”
……
与围绕着十二月党人的种种神话相反，他们并不是圣人。在十二月党人的回忆录中，他们一般不愿意说同志的坏话，但是扎瓦利申并没有回避他们在彼得罗夫斯克扎沃德的生活中不太美好的方面。他讲述，随着更富有的十二月党人在几年后开始在监狱周围建造自己的私人住宅，这种社区感开始减弱：“他们向我们保证，这样做是为了减轻过度拥挤的问题，但事实上并不是这个原因……这样做破坏了平等，让一些人不受社会监督的控制，这不仅促生了富人的特权，而且在新生的无产阶级中促生了奴性。"例如，沃尔孔斯基家和特鲁别茨科伊家都有约二十五名仆人，包括一名助产士和一名簿记员。穆拉维约夫家甚至有自己的管家。在监狱里还有四十名仆人：保铐、厨师、面包师、园丁和猪信。结果，有些人“开始成为更有特权的人，为了从他们那里获得私人利益，赞助人、党派分子和私人派系出现了”。纸牌和酒精，“这些以前不可想象的东西开始出现在监狱中并且开始摧毁我们的人品”。许多人召妓，从周边农民家庭的女儿那里购买性服务。
So, I wonder whether there is a swimming pool inside "秦城"?
秦城监狱关押高官的牢房除了面积较大，有的还配有写字台、卫生间、坐式马桶和洗衣机。一些在押官员除了“可看书读报”，每天还有一段时间可看电视，一般集中在晚上7点到9点。某些身体欠佳的特殊囚犯，饮食可一日四餐，用餐标准和费用由国家规定和支付，家属亦可私下打理。如衣服、日用品等基本生活用品可由家人提供。监狱虽有统一囚服，但这里的囚犯一般可不用穿。
Oh, basically the same.
至于刘晓庆后来自己说“在秦城监狱”如何如何，一位专家说：“那不过是借秦城监狱之名抬高身价罢了，秦城监狱不是什么人都能进的。”
May be in life in "秦城" is much better than ordinary people outside, who knows?
什么是意识形态（下）哲普
它的缺席却意味着更多的麻烦，即整体性的灾难。一旦彻底消灭了犹太人，德国人就会意识到他们的社会依然没有办法团结，意识到阶级对抗依然存在。因此，征兆总是让人置身于无法选择的境地——你既要努力消灭它，又不能太快消灭它。
……
一旦捅破最后一层窗户纸、走到幻象的另一头，就会发现那里一无所有，没有任何值得渴望的东西，没有任何崇高现象。通俗地说，这种感觉就是我们在完成了「满足欲望」的行为（吃饭、泡吧、做爱、升官、赚钱……）之后那个「这好像也不是我要的」的一瞬间。
So, there is must be something waiting for us to criticize, that is like the "动摇阶级" and "敌对阶级" in North Korea, when I first know that, I was confused why they don't simple kill them? So in this theory you can't kill them all at once, otherwise there is no enemy here!
Iran 25 million
WTF???
title: 2020-07-19 toc: 2020-07-19 date: 2020-07-19 23:00:00 tags: diary
《C version of date structure and algorithm》
Tree is so hard...
Stuck in the tree chapter for almost one day.
jQuery
The js programming is in a complete mess!
This teacher is actually teaching us the design pattern of js rather that the usage of jQuery.
I planned to learn jQuery in one day now it seems will take 20 days!
title: 2020-07-20 toc: 2020-07-20 date: 2020-07-20 23:00:00 tags: diary
Vue
jQuery finished, actually that teacher spend the whole rest of the class talking about the php which I don't need, so I dropped it.
Contrary to css, you don't need to watch a video to learn it, simply read the doc may be a good option.
Ok this teacher seems more exaggerated: Learn Vue.js in 3 hours???
《死屋》
陀思妥耶夫斯基于1854年2月从鄂木斯克刑罚堡获释，当时他年仅34岁。他的刑罚已经减为在塞米巴拉金斯克的西伯利亚陆军第七营服役。56他熬过了四年的苦役，但是苦役经历给他留下了终身的创伤，且对于他的写作和思想发展来说至关重要。那些与他一同因禁的人为他描写盗贼和杀人者提供了令人信服的心理学研究，这些盗贼和杀人者出现在了他那些伟大的后西伯利亚小说中，即《罪与罚》（1866年）、《白痴》(1868年）、《群魔》（1871年）和《卡拉马佐夫兄弟》（1880年）。这位作家在西伯利亚对人类灵魂的黑暗冲动进行的观察，汇成了一种对犯罪、责任和道德的无尽痴迷。
……
1864年5月的一天上午，一名戴眼镜、穿着俄国知识分子偏爱的深色大衣的男子在圣彼得堡梅特那亚广场准备被褫夺公民权。他就是激进杂志《现代人》的编辑尼古拉·车尔尼雪夫斯基，他的罪名是“阴谋颠覆现有制度”。当他跪在一两千名观众面前时，一把剑在他头顶折断了，他的判决被大声宣读了出来。他会“被剥夺其原有身份的所有权利，在矿山中服14年苦役，随后在西伯利亚永久定居”1。在许多方面，当局非常准确地评估了这位温文尔雅的记者通过他源源不断的刊物带来的危险。他的观念在智识领域对沙皇制度的思想基础发起了猛烈抨击，并激发了连续几代激进分子，他们将在未来的半个世纪里赢得与国家的斗争。《怎么办？》是车尔尼雪夫斯基在彼得保罗要塞等待审判时写作的小说，是激励一代激进分子的号角。对包括年轻的弗拉基米尔·列宁在内的许多人来说，这部小说勾画的乌托邦式革命世界似乎闪耀着一个可行的——而且急于立即实现的——未来，这个未来被世俗主义、平等、和谐、理性支配着。车尔尼雪夫斯基的改革要求与19世纪60年代和70年代“悔恨的贵族”相一致，后者感到对贫困和受压迫的农民阶层有巨大的道德责任。对于即将到来的革命，负罪感将成为一种心理激励要素。
……
梅特那亚广场上的围观者并不是为了指责而聚于此处，而是出于同情。这个说话温和的知识分子所受判决之严厉，在受过教育的俄国人当中产生了强烈反应。然而，车尔尼雪夫斯基只是19世纪60年代数百名遭遇政府镇压的年轻激进分子中最著名的。许多人不过是传播和讨论了在改革时代风靡的科学和政治观念。小官吏之妻瓦尔瓦拉·亚历山德罗芙斯卡娅便是这样一个被当局拘留的激进分子。她在圣彼得堡单独关押了两年，然后在1869年被认定为“一个致力于改变俄国现有制度的非法组织的成员，试图传播犯罪作品”。亚历山德罗芙斯卡娅被剥夺了与其地位相当的所有权利，终身流放东西伯利亚。在接下来的几年里，又有数百人被放逐到西伯利亚。
It seems that most of the famous Russian intellectuals had an experiences of being in labor camp, maybe...
17th Congress of the All-Union CONMI Party
Accidentally read this black-humor like congress, search it in Baidu, find no Chinese info about it ( maybe in some books, but who reads books? )
While the English wiki do have some facts, but not humorous.
title: 2020-07-21 toc: 2020-07-21 date: 2020-07-21 23:00:00 tags: diary
Brave New World
Subtitle groups are indeed the open source movement and communist practice in literature world!
How do they make any money?
By the way, the series itself is totally shit, don't waste time on it.
React
Ok, I give up Vue.js, I find that the reason why vue is so popular in China is just because its founder is a Chinese ( American Chinese ), but anyhow, whether react or vue is absolutely a big step for web-development, which means that what do you have learned previously is completely useless now( fuck! ).
This is a completely different way of developing the web. Besides, react has a killer feature: react native, which you could develop the web and bringing into a mobile app, you write it once and run in iOS and android. This is really cool!
But that makes it significantly harder, you can't master it in several days.
Oh fuck!
title: 2020-07-22 toc: 2020-07-22 date: 2020-07-22 23:00:00 tags: diary
Insomnia
Oh fuck! Must go to bed 11:00 and read Wittgenstein's books before sleep, start from today!
Or I maybe die of it!
《date structure and algorithm》
Finally finished the tree part.
I find that many things that I thought difficult previously are actually not that difficult.
In most cases, it's just because we are too lazy to read the doc.
React
Now I can kind of understand why they teaches us those old-school ways of developing the web.
Because this world is full of those shit web pages!
React is like an ICBM, you don't ever need to use ICBM to conquer an Africa country, they don't deserve it, simply use AK-47! It's much cheaper.
There are only a few websites in the world that need such a powerful framework to build. Most websites are just a simple ad page with no date to change.
title: 2020-07-23 toc: 2020-07-23 date: 2020-07-23 23:00:00 tags: diary
Deam
B-2 bombing.
Using vim to operate an anti-aircraft gun.
Obviously useless.
《Data structure and algorithm》
There is a print error on P175, chapter sort, the "ElementType" was printed as "Element Type"
React
Ok, I switch to another course, despite the previous one had a bald teacher, but actually he seems not good at teaching, we spend hours building a react app ( start from scratch ) I guess he pretended all his audiences are ES7 and TypeScript experts, unfortunately I totally knew few about it. So one hour later( Two hours in all ), I was already unable to catch up on it.
The current course is from www.freetutorial.us, but the teacher is a Russian ( slightly heavy accent ), he spend the first 45 minutes to introduce the react architecture and the next gen js ( ES7 ), which is very nice.
The shortage is this course has 400 episodes, which is kind of too detailed, I use 2x to go through it, but his Russian accent make it bit hard to understand what he says.
ToDo List
I always like the default todo app on Ubuntu. It is simple, beautiful and elegant.
I plan to take it into iOS( maybe universal App in the future ) using the brand new SwiftUI, start from today.
But it seems getting off on the wrong foot.
Oh, too many syntaxes changed from last year, I may have to relearn the declarative syntax tomorrow.
title: 2020-07-24 toc: 2020-07-24 date: 2020-07-24 23:00:00 tags: diary
ToDo list
The most fucking thing about app development is that you don't know what challenge you're going to meet.
When I started, everything seems easy to be built, but when you actually do it in details, all kinds of problems emerged, it is even possible you can never solve them.
So I never believe children in "青少年创新大赛" could develop their own App, that must be cheating.
Aaaaah fuck, I'm a bug generator!
There is tons of problems in swiftUI, I really shouldn't use this new framework to build App. Frankly speaking, they all bluff that swiftUI is "revolutionary" 、"10 times easier to build an app", but I don't feel that...
OK, The framework is basically in place, but this is ugly and featureless, I may draw a real paperclip instead of this SF symbol
Music stage play "The East is Red" HD
https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1Ns411b7HF?from=search&seid=16935964413161524951
Oh this is incredible, it is the best Chinese orchestra I have ever heard!
title: 2020-07-25 toc: 2020-07-25 date: 2020-07-25 23:00:00 tags: diary
Pixiv
It seems that the pandemic has boosted the artists' creativity.
Haven't viewed it for a few weeks, the artists on my list have created tons of new paintings.
This reminds me that in this world there are still some beautiful things deserve our love and wisdom.
Fuck, I wonder if those war mongers and anti-human keyboard politicians have ever seen such beautiful things, how could their dare to destroy that?
While I also notice that, due to the passive censorship police Pixiv has conducted, some of the R-18 contents have obviously reached the baseline of human civilization. I am not a staid conservative, You know that even pornographic websites have their own censorship system, because some of the content is unacceptable to all civilized people.
The vague description of child pornography in Japanese animation has always been a loophole in its legitimacy. But I am OK with that. In western views, all Japanese anime has child pornography, which is obviously unreasonable.
But what I'm talking about is some of the most violent and bloody content in Pixiv. They obviously violated the laws of any country in this world. As far as I know, some popular artists have been arrested by the FBI, but Pixiv always refused to impose any restrictions on their content.
By the way, the COMI has imposed an unprecedented high-level blockade on Pixiv, you can't get access to it even with VPN.
title: 2020-07-26 toc: 2020-07-26 date: 2020-07-26 23:00:00 tags: diary
Dream
Bought a Chanel wheelchair.
It's all silvery, and it runs very fast without the need for any enenrgy.
I "drive" it on a highway, crushed against a truck.
Dead.
Django
VScode supports really well for python.
I just need to continue press the tab key, and the autocompletion will do the rest of work, it's so smooth, I don't even need to think.
title: 2020-07-27 toc: 2020-07-27 date: 2020-07-27 23:00:00 tags: diary
Attend a banquet
Totally shit!
Anxiety transmitter ! Stock, house, education, and medical treatment.
Why people seek trouble for themselves?
Only kids can survival. Fortunately there is one, we talk about art, philosophy and politics.
In kid's eyes, life seems pretty good.
title: 2020-07-28 toc: 2020-07-28 date: 2020-07-28 23:00:00 tags: diary
Dream
Fry eggs.
Fell into the gas range.
Can't find it anymore.
……
Another dream is a pretty erotic one. It is really weird. Why men are so obsessed with orgasms girls? It doesn't make any sense, and otherwise this world may become a much better one.
Maybe it is time to lower my hormone levels manually, which I haven't done it for few weeks.
P~
Who says that the p~hub is the only peaceful places where people love each other?
And spreading anxiety!
Quit it! Fuck! Why are we people full of hatred and jealousy even on pornographic websites?
Sun City
Dinner talk
My father: Do you know about the Sun City incident?
I: Obviously, it has been talked a month ago.
F: They got the full list of gambling people's cash flow!
I: No way, It must be a fake list.
F: No ,It is true, they have caught about 300 people.
I: It must be some poor, powerless people.
F: Maybe, but you know who is the No.1 in Changzhou?
I: How can I know?
F: It is Mr XXX!
My mother: Holy shit!
F: 500 million in recent 5 years!
I: But gambling in 澳门 is not illegal, right?
F: But his money is not reported to foreign exchange management.
We talk the Changzhou Public Security Director, he suggested to find a helper in a foreign country, and then said at the trial that all of his money was borrowed, so that the crime could be eliminated.
I: Wish he is ok.
F: Never gambling when you grow up!
I: Come on, I am already old, and I am so poor, can't even afford lottery tickets.
Didn't you find that you didn't give me a penny of money during this half year of the university lock down? I even pay for my phone calls with 花呗.
F: Who told you to set such a high monthly package, you should have chosen a more economical option long ago!
title: 2020-07-29 toc: 2020-07-29 date: 2020-07-29 23:00:00 tags: diary
Dream ( Freedom! )
As I constantly repeat the same dream again and again, my self-awareness in the dream has also become stronger and stronger.
This time I realize it is fake at very beginning of the dream, it is an old style of school dream.
I ask my desk-mate ( we are in a high school, but he is my primary school classmate ): Why you're fucking here? Your are so old now!
He: I'm here to prepare for the college entrance examination.
I: Bullshit! I've seen you last year in your collage, how do you explain that?
He: ( Point out his blue Porsche parked at the school gate ) Oh, that requires some skills...
I: So you're talking class on both side? Sounds reasonable......
Bullshit! The next class is PE! You have no reason to stay here, let's get out of here and try your new car!
And I shout to other student in the classroom: You are all fake! Don't stay here, just go out and play!
And we all getting out.
Like pigeons scared away by gunfire, everyone ran away in less than 1 second.
……
In the next few hours, we spent a wonderful time in a few non-existent stationery shops, model shops, milk-tea shops and restaurants in a non-existent town. We talked about something we used to talk about, such as military equipment, art, and some celebrities’ scandals.
This is just like Truman’s world.
It has a milestone meaning for my struggle with my nightmares, because in this dream, which has been repeated hundreds of times since middle school, I have never escaped correctly, always been insulted by teachers and in the fear of not being able to do the question on the paper, and spend the whole dream in that fucking desk.
The last milestone was that before I went to primary school, I would often be dreamed of being hunted by monsters or bad guys. But few years later I also mastered the trick and I was able to escape very quick.
title: 2020-07-30 toc: 2020-07-30 date: 2020-07-30 23:00:00 tags: diary
Building a Feature-Rich App for Sports Analysis
Well, this is very interesting ...
May meet some sport apps based on the coreML next year.
Is asian developers' baldness a genetic problem?
title: 2020-07-31 toc: 2020-07-31 date: 2020-07-31 23:00:00 tags: diary
Why there are so many car media？
Although I know they are all garbage cars, and selling garbage cars has a very substantial profit.
But are the Chinese really rich enough to buy cars as consumer goods?
Cars are not like smart phones...
图森未来
A total fraud, bet it go bankrupt very soon.
It is impossible to put driverless truck in use right now, and they say they're going to achieve it in 2021, WTF?
